I ♥ Music

Friday, December 28, 2007,2:05 AM

Such a corny picture . but kinda cute .

thanks to di for the whole day .

page 42 huh . .

well today . i went to dover i.t.e

i was expecting i am gonna be begging for help .

but, it never happen .

well , di was quite pissed off with the customer service officer .

as di thinks that he did not served us right .

in anyways , another chance was given to me .

9th of january will be the day .

we'll see what will happen then .

nothing much to say .

tomorrow then i will fill up can ?

tired leiii . . tireed . .

Thursday, December 27, 2007,4:35 AM

try it on my own

My Everdearest Friends .

The song, very related to my life . i wish i could sing this song to you guys .

i feel like an old man lying down on his bed sorrounded my friends and family breathing for his last breath . and everyone kissing my forehead turn by turn to say goodbye . and bringing to the stairway to heaven their unconditional love .

first and formost . it is sad to know that i was not qualified to join ITE, for that i am not able to continue my studies here again in singapore. well i guess, i am the one to be blame . i have been a notorious,obnoxious student in the past . i am just a stupid jerk in a normal technical stream .
a lot of chances were given to me and yet i disobeyed everything. Regret is always in the end. in this time round no chances are given .
Living in singapore was a great experienced for me. the foods, the environment the places and specially my adorable and loveable FRIENDS. it is hard to forget the past.
the past which was filled with joy and laughter . through good times and bad times. ohh shit it makes me cry now . recalling the past . being a brenda wasn't too easy to live life to the fullest. every night out of the street discriminating for pleasure and happiness and money to support everyday expenses. like shoppings, cigarretes, taxi and etc.
i've been super exoctic to the max . and forget being bryan and old friends at the same time. i never thought of those friends i am with on the streets were not the friends i've been wanting for .
and because of them, being brenda i became a part time student in my school BUKIT VIEW SECONDARY SCHOOL . it was a total devastation to know that one of my subjects was ungraded . results i can't select the good courses in ite . i always wanted to be a nurse well i know i was too ambitious for that . a stupid jerk like me deserves nothing in life . i am being ridiculous for expecting myself in a nurse's uniform. I really treated my friends well like melda . a lot of things happened . but i absolutely know that his boyfriend is his prioritise . my handphone was stolen in his boyfriend's house if you don't know by now melda because of that . i have to pay 300 for penalty .i did not tell the police who stole it just because for your own good . you see i always think about my friends first before i make a move. your boyfriend who promised to pay but give nothing but his words. and you ? nothing. and you still can tell people that i stole your boyfriend's handphone and money . when you stole my money did i spread to the people ? you did not appreciate everything i did for you . go and get a life .

and now i am living the life how a normal boy starts to live being an adult . i faced the reality .
a simple life with so much adorable friends . friends is my treasure . do u guys wanna know why i stopped living as a woman ? hahaha . i think sayyidi should know. LoL .
but the real thing was i am enough of everything . specially guys who broke brenda's life .
that danny ! mother fucker . khalid i will always love you . please forgive my sins. I've learned from my mistakes which way to go .

I start again go back to one . i am running things on my way . although it is difficult but i can't go back living in a wrong way like before .
i just love my friends. i will miss the fun we had if i happen to leave . well i guess it will take long for me to see you guys again . i really really treasure everything .
thank god for all his everyday blessings. the unconditional love he gave to me . i am fortunate enough to have a such good experience in this 19 years .

Now it is time for me to do it on my own and i don't care wether it is right or wronng
i have to learn to do it on my own ways . i wanna be independent this time and for that i will live life the way i feel. to prove to myself that i can do it.

Me myself and i telling you guys that start a new way of life while still early . do not get accompanied by the wrong people who are traitors . remember regrets is in the end of everything . be inspired by this . bare in ur mind. do not throw the good opportunities .

"DO NOT DULL YOUR SHINE FOR SOMEBODY ELSE"

,1:31 AM

it's been a long journey .

i gonna miss all of you .

news comes later okay guys .

kinda in a deep dipressions now . .

Tuesday, December 25, 2007,3:02 PM

Noche Buena

hahah . hahah .

it was fun after all .

although the family is incomplete .

i miss my sister . my brother niece and nephews .

btw . do you guys know what is Noche Buena

it's spanish . in english Midnight Gathering something like that luh .

like we have to gather together as a one family during x-mas eve .

foods. presents . money . whine .

haha . it's not just a normal gathering .

but a special day or night for us cristians or catholics.

we celebrate new year too .

but not compulsary with the family .

i am gonna celebrate my new year with my friends .

i miss john . i miss azah

where u guys .?

i miss my bed . i miss my slowest com .

btw . i am using my sister's laptop in tampines .

it's fast okay .

hahhaha .

well i am just waiting for this badut to wake up .

sayyidimesnadi .

kiwakk .

i waited for him for an hour in tampines .

while waiting i saw lots of people.

not to mention i guess.

to my friends,

merry xmas to you guys and happy new year .

im urs- merry xmas and happy new year .

thanks for the e-cards .

thanks .

coming back soon ah ?

hahah . hahah .

well i wish u have a good love life with ur GF .

i AM really really happy for u .

be good .

for me . my new years resolution .

i wanna study hard .

i wanna be single .

unless u r Mr right .

i am a total bottom. ermm . top . well i guess flex .?

no luhh . confused .

i wannna apologised to the public .

i know i am arrogant and snobbish .

that's what i am .

but i am a happy go lucky person okay .

nice . charming . and fascinating .

there is something about bryan .

shizari - i wanna thank u for telling me that i am a happy go luckky person . bubbly bubbly . hey our secrets remember? i am gonna top up soon .

di - i hate u . don't do that again .

waiting and specially about the tag .

wish u have a good year start . secondary school huh .

john - i miss u luhh . i can't wait to meet u and hugg u .

john john john . u take care alot . alot .

azah - bilerr kau nak kuar nan kite ? i miss u too .

jaggi- be good , jangan notti notti luh . maen hi jack ape?

naughty girl luhh seyy . .

to the people i beaten up - i am so sorry . but i think u deserve it .

speacially the gurls in the clubs .

melda- sorry .

khalid- i miss you so much . and i love you .

danny - fuck you .

beyonce - can we meet up ?

kiddo - thanks for the blog .

tifanny's - search till u can . kill me if u can .

i know i am strong .

melamir - when are u going out with me ? go drinking and clubbing ? u promised remember .

sean paul - i love you . hahaha

well i guess thats it ,

hahahaah

Monday, December 24, 2007,2:54 PM

clumsy coz i am falling in love

. OH my IT is Xmas .
. Neither happy nor sad .
. a normal body temperature today .
. a normal temper too .
. but i really don't know what is happening to me .
. hurt . hurt . hurt . hurt .
. please come back soon this time i really really need a shoulder to cry on .
. i will wait for you .
. i just realise that you are the guy i have been waiting for ! .
. please forgive me for every nasty things i've done .
. i really want you . need you . love you and miss you .
. when can u be by my side again . your sweetness , your cuteness .
. all of that is been missing by me .
. you said i will alyways remain in you .
. i really really feel guilty . what i've done to you .
. please forgive me if you don't i won't hesitate myself from committing siucide .
. please don't leave me blank . don't leave me empty .
. those tears every night .
. i DO love you . long long time ago .
. that's the truth .

,12:29 AM

(an old pic from I"in .)

. ESTUPIDO .
. wrong move already .
. and i give up .
. i am a bit embarrased and i am totally fucking hurt now .
. i am such a dork .
. i don't wanna be there again .
. i don't wanna be there again .
. no doubts okay .
. ... .
. i am not afraid to tell you .
. and .
. i don't ever want to leave you confused .

. I'in and i soaked ourselves .
. we went swimming just now early evening .
. i am not really myself just now as i am missing him .
. i am always lost .
. i'in even said that .
. i don't know what's happening with me because of one guy .
. but anyways it is all over .
. i will never like a guy this way again .
. i think it is time for me to closed my heart to evryone .
. i am not prepared .
. low self-steem .
. single . unavailable .
. i don't need a man , to make it happen . i get off being free .
. i don't need a man , to make me feel good. i get off doing my thing .
. i don't need a ring around my finger . to make feel complete .
. so let me break it down . i can get off when you ain't you around .

Saturday, December 22, 2007,1:49 PM

te quiero tanto
estas loco
te caida en amour
te corazon.

BRYAN

hace dos noches that i met you .
tengo un agolpamiento en ti en la primera noche .
no esta sobre tu aspecto sino tu dulzor .

i caught every of your glanced y cogiste los mios tambien.
tu dulzor que me hace totally interested knowing you .
it is very stupido but i guess you made me caida en amor.

te falto tanto..i miss you so much . ***

Friday, December 21, 2007,7:12 PM

I wanna go out leh today .

yeah . i woke up at 7. pm siak 2dae .
i waited a lot of time .
i am so bored at home .
this is my second time posting todayy .

i've been outside for 2nights and 2days .
really have fun .
making lotsa noise out there .
apologies to the nieghbourhood in ave. 4

it was so cool . last night . yeah .
although i had never take a bath for 2 nights .
i was still out there chilling at the void deck
in ave. 4
met new friends .
like hasni (ave. 4)
I'in (tampines . cousin of boweyy)
yeaah .

I'in , bow , hasni , jaggie and me are there playing poker cards the whole night .
we played . taiti (which i don't know how to play) race . bluff read our faiths .
fun fun fun .!

i just had my dinner .
well beef rendang . sambal sotong are on the table .
yummy!
i miss him siak . i hope i could meet him another day .
or tonight .
i really wanna go out ! go out ! go out !
please ehk .
anoyone please call mie ?

,10:17 AM

MD SAYYIDI BIN MESNADI

MD SAYYIDI BIN MESNADI

well , what can i say .

you made me tear .

i just got to know yesterday

that i have a space in your blog .

hahaha.

i was really sure on that day that i am going back home .

was depressed . stressed and it was like ,

i am carrying the whole entire world .

it is hard to face the fact that i am leaving .

it is for my own good .

Prioritise, is the future .

well . happy lah kau . aku tak jadi .

sundelley .

but i am leaving for bintan and genting .

let me guess. u will cry huh .

babi .

di .

thank god that i knew you .

shared tears . laughter . joy . stressed .

we had so much fun ah .

maybe .every seconds we are laughing .

although i am snobbish . (get used to it bitch)

i know i turned you down about the results .

you knew i tried my best .

i worked on it ape .

haha .

for all those time you spent with me .

learning numbers .

for all those patient you gave me .

i am so thankful

and

i won't under appreciate you .

I MISS YOU TOO

(although its only 8 hourss )

Be strong . be tough . be good.

don't get interupt by your sorroundings

specially, at home . aite?

everything will be fine soon . love takes time .

don't worry .

it's a challenge and part of yout life .

crying at night? not worth it .

it is worth if you share to someone .

alalala "a shoulder to cry on "

ouhkay , bebeh ?

Moronotic? aku ke kau ?

busted .

i will always be here with you .

ouhkay ?

giller lah kau .

babi .

stupid kelly .

oh yeah . not to forget to mention .

about the embarrasing thingy .

a lil dirty secret huh .

will be revealed soon .

coming up next !

chao !

*muah*

Wednesday, December 19, 2007,10:57 PM

TOTAL STRESS AWAY

total stress away .

Good News .

im officially staying here .

hahaha .

well . have fun .

i am going to Genting .

with my sis .

FROM 27 to 30 december !

,8:56 PM

MIRIAM RIVERA my IDOL .

as many of you have not heard of MIRIAM RIVERA before .
so now i will share to you guys who is he .
HE?
yes he is biogically a he" .
phisycally a she .
well. easy to say she is a transgenderous .

she was born in mexico in 1981 and
started taking hormones pills when she was 11 .
i don't really know how she was in the modeling part .
well i guess, she joined a lot of beauty pageant .
fortunately she made it .
a successful woman .
she even had her reality show in u.k
"there is something about miriam"
her reality show is almost the same as the bachelorette .

she is one in a million rite .

earlier this year . she faced a tragic tragedy .
a group a gays planned it .
she was beaten up to death .
she was thrown down from her four stories apartment.
she was hammered in her head .

Fortunately. she is alive .
she is beautiful .
such an inspiration to be .

but i never hope to be like her .
she is just a new role to the trans that,
being a trans is still a life .
donot get imtimidated by anyone.
be confident and be yourself .
show to the world that we are

someone and sombody .

yeah i know .

world knows that

trans is a sex symbol .

"BE confident & Be yourself"

,2:23 AM

forever's not enough for me to love you

If I would have to live my life again

I'd stay in love with you the way I've been

Your love is something no one ever can replace

I can't imagine life with someone else

I promise I will share my life with you

Forever may not be enough it's true

My heart is filled with so much love

I feel for you

No words can say how much I love you so

*chorus*

And if forever's not enough for me to love you

I'd spend another lifetime baby,

If you ask me toThere's nothing

I won't doForever's not enough for me to love you so

They say tomorrow seems so far away,

And now we see that everything can change

My love for you gets stronger as tomorrow comes

I know this love will standthe test of time

bridge

For you, there's nothing'

I can't doAnd never will

I ever go

Forever's not enough to love you so

But if forever ends one day

I promise you I'll stay

to show you

That my love for you will never end...

And if forever's not enough for me to love you

I'd spend another lifetime baby,

If you ask me to

There's nothing I won't do

Forever's not enough for me to love you so

,1:43 AM

accept me flaws and alll

i am so stressed.

my mind is blaNK .

dunnoe what to write 2dae .

i am just pressed .

i don't really wish to talk about what happened today .

i just want to hop to another dimension of the world .

well i know it is imposible .

so i just have to wait for another day .

to start a new beginning

i really made up my mind .

i really don't wanna continue my studies here in singapore .

i wanna go back to the phillippines .

live independently .

studying while working .

support my own . that's what i wanna do .

be independent .

i am 19 . so i need to think of the future .

i know i can do it . the main prob is

i need $1300 .

$300 for transport .

$1000 to support myself while finding a job .

enroll myself in a nursing school . i just want that .

i will make it happen .

i will .

Tuesday, December 18, 2007,12:46 AM

F f F f F

yah . the dance com was last sunday .
it the latest competition i joined
after 2 years .

i was so totally scared and nervous .
it was like my first time performing up in a stage .
forgot some steps . but i knew i was kept on dancing .
like i was the lead of the dance .
i did my own steps . hahahak i hope u guys did not noticed it ,

well . alot of my supporters came .
i would like to thank
MIA . FAHMI . YAN . 6 OF THEM FORGOT THEIR NAMES (ksm)
JAG2. FIQAH.KEKA.TITTY.LALA.MIRA.BOW.SAYYIDI.
ANOTHER 5 OF EM .
MY MOM.MY SIS. MY 3 NIECES.MY MAID. MY BRO-IN LAW.

thanks for coming . it's like my concert .
tomolo is the big day .
N"level result .
i am so nervous .
tomorrow is the day that will lead me to the future .
so u guys . wish me luck yeah?

not much stories to tell .
but the cute guy i was toking about the other day
was in the competition too .
he is so cutee ..
awww .. .

so u guys . who have been reading my blog .
thanks ehk . alot . further questions
u may leave it in my lovenotes section ,
i will serve u rite .

love bryan

Saturday, December 15, 2007,4:40 AM

hinahanap hanap kita . (i've been looking for you)

awit sa akin
nilang sawa na sa ting
mga kwentong marathon
tungkol sayo
at sa ligayang
iyong hatid
sa aking buhay
tuloy ang bida sa isipan koy ikaw

chorus:
sa umaga sa gabi sa
bawat minutong lumilipas
hinahanap-hanap kita
hinahanap-hanap kita
sa isip at panaginip
bawat pagpihit ng tadhana
hinahanap-hanap kita
hinahanap-hanap kita

sabik sayo
kahit maghapon
na tayoy magkasama
parang telesine
ang ating ending
hatid sa bahay nyo
sabay goodnight
sabay may kiss
sabay bye-bye

repeat chorus:

pilit ko mang ikay limutin
lagi kong natatagpuan
ang iyong tinig at awitin
twing sasapit ang ulan
at linggo pang pinagsamahan
muka yatang nilimot na
ng yong pusong biglang lumisan
may kapiling ka ng iba
repeat chorus:

sa skul sa flag ceremony
hanggang uwian araw-araw
hinahanap-hanap kita
hinahanap-hanap kita
at kahit na magkaanak kayot
magkatuluyan balang araw
hahanap-hanapin ka
hahanap-hanapin ka

Friday, December 14, 2007,11:54 PM

he got me lovestoned . do u know?

i am sooo confused .
i don't really know what to do .
i just can't live how i used to .

out of town . . . yeah!

today i am freaky tired .
practice was at 10 a.m and i slept last night at 5 a.m
talking to di on the phone till the sun comes up . no luhh . kidding oni .
5 a.m mane ade sun? giler tao aku . .

sometimes if i feel bored . i mumble to myself .
it just happen . e`in caught me once . that i was talking to myself quietly .
he was so shocked and laughed at me all the way .
i was so 'embarassed . gosh . am i crazy ?

haiz... i need a theraphy/phsycology maybe . i guess .
u guys think so .
i really need some ones advice ' (leave in my tag )

a lil tribute to melda ! i mish u gerl .

this photo was taken earlier this year .
how do i look ? ?

,2:23 AM

smile!

hhhhaaa. (loudest laugh u will hear from my mouth .)
i will start my post today with my torn skinny jeans ,
hhahhahha..
it started to be a small torn while i wanna dance with
song of "lovestoned-i think that she knows"
sang by justin timberlake . he is so cute! i could
be the next britney or cameron? i know i am such a dildoe.
well, i will not be dancing that song for this upcoming com. anyway .
(sundday at ngee ann city starts at 12 )
i just want to "giler-giler" yeah . stupidness , it turned out so bad .

hahah! from small to a wildest bigger torn !
fortunately no one notices it but that john and azah were laughing
all the way from underground to seat by the bay !
well i was walking with a confident and noone notices it!

yeah . i went for pracx today .
its starts at 3 and we ended at 9 like that .

yah tired, super-dooper tired .
but what can i do ? if com. is on sunday
working hard lor . so far im fine and good .
but today he totally spoild my day!
he was over there . he pass by and
so fuck up that he saw me .
he gave the most melting smile .
shit!
but not being plastic i gave him back cutety smiles . =P
with that smile made him sit !
anyways that was before my jeans get torn , that was lucky!
well stop talking bout' him .

yeah .. hahaha that Hakim (lush,F5) came and sit with us .
as usual with his bitchyness. . hahhaha
funny of him . spotcheck our bag .
and yah . he dance a lil' for u s . .
hahahaha .

and yah there was . this one guy .
he 's soooo cute .awww.
he melted me . i dunnoe wad his name was but he gave
a total eclipse in my heart .
he is just adorable .
i did saw him glance at me and yah he gave me that
frick smile . and that made me
forgot my steps . and for that
thanks to Ein for shouting at me ! biatch !
he is some kind of a break dancer but a hip hop dancer .
i dun really reaaly understand .
but what i know is. he dances .

x-mas is around the corner .
big day for me huh .
i just wanna wish everyone
with
happy festive seasons !

guys , nyte!
it is like 3.30 and my pracx
starts at 10 tomorrow so i have to wake by 8 am

love you .

Wednesday, December 12, 2007,6:54 AM

i don't really really know what is this post all about ?

i don't have that stupid mood to type when it's 6.56 a.m

hhahahh . first and formost -DIDI-

computer aku sort sikit . die nye uploading lambat gilerr .

tunggu luhh kau kalau aku ade mood nari .

and oh puhlisss . please come to my DANCE COM .

it is on Sundae . kat Ngee Ann City ajak semua ehk . . (tat's all 4 DIDI - u may close the tab)

Yesterday morning . i met him and really really talk about the

situation . He finally understood me and he will not be

bugging me like i am some kind of a whore .

afternoon had a dance pracxx until moring around 3 and

khalid took me and send me home .

oh yeah he is my ex-bf when i was Brenda .

hhahaha. so sweet he gave me a good night kiss .

_di if u r still there . i do believe you now .

i do really look like a woman .

even khalid said that .

i may not be pretty but i have the feminity side in bryan .

it was been a really long time since i saw him .

and that was few months back . i met him

and i brought E'in along .

hhahahh .

oh daddy. mommy misses daddy alot .

mommy loves daddy .

daddy dah makan lum?

daddy nak mommy suapkan daddy ? .

hahah i really miss the old time . fuck?

awwwwww . .

Monday, December 10, 2007,9:13 PM

` What about today?

Earlier today .
I updated my blog .
"sentosa's madness" was supposed to be written last night.
i was too exhausted to update my own blog .

Yah last night, last night i slept before 11 pm .
and woke at around 10 am.
and that was the time i update my blog .

For the whole Day,
Till' now i am still waiting for Mr. Guna's call .

Waited for so long . i took a nap
around 3 pm today and woke up around 7.30+

Had my dinner. lontong and indonesian's chicken curry.
it was a lovely dinner.
as my niece jeowy played her trombone while having my dinner.
lovely and romantic rite .
while the other niece jesyca (the pulau ubin girl)
created so much noise . that cause earing irritations.

Watch Charlie's Angel in cinemax .
and went down to 7eleven
i bought rokok gulong .
i need one anyways .
but until now haven't touch as i am lazy to gulong some .

and my crazy niece jeowy is keep on irritating me
by pinching `MY CHEEKS"
AND say i am so cute .
until now i am freak out .
scared to go near her .
while that jesyca (the pulau ubin girl)
busy with her nitendo DS lite.
and the maid is watchin tv for the whole day .

Now. i am planning to
watch late nite movies .
coz i`m tired of sleeping .

,12:59 PM

Sentosa's Madness

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hey .
it's Monday and it's BLue
Saturday nite it 's the night
that we planned to go sentosa.
We didnot go Zouk-out
but i guess the fun we had is
much more fun than soaking yourself
in Zouk-out.

we went to The Palawan Beach .
the island, which is the southernmost asia's continent
we reach there at around 10.30+

the weather was fine, cool breeze .
It was Jaggi , Dy-lisa, Di, Nad, Rin, Bow and Me for the first nite .
we found a spot that there is an available cottage and
a space that is enough for two tents .

Jaggi, Dy-lisa, Bowey& me shared the Tequilla Gold that i brought for the night.
The bottle was already and the 3 of them said they are high.
But, i wasn't.
they guys wannna get a long tin of armsterdam .
but i don't want.
but bowey the stubborn one bought two tins.
So Each tin per couples.
we played poker cards.
naddy and rin was busy on their own self's converstion.
while the five of us were under the cottage

Jaggi and bowey were some kinda drunk or something?
but i don't really understand .
well, on that part i have nio comments
Jaggi wasnt normal. run here, run there like a mad cow .
jaggi was playing in the water,
cry here cry there. apologised to di.
di told me jaggi is dragging the story from past to now.
i don't really understand all this people they can't behave themselves when they are high or
isst just they are have some scripts in their mind? A.K.A Acting
it was so fake at all .
i already warned jaggi to behave herself.
Cos` if anything happens, i will be responsible for it
coz i was the one who organise it .

ending part - Jag was elimanated in the island
yah she went home at at that hour. around 2?
Well i guess, he felt guilty .
i think that drinking part made a BARRIER to us .

But it was so quite dissapointing that jaggi left the us .
i myself feel like dragging her back to the island but
she said she already boarded the bus .

Anyways, we had fun although one was missing .

we danced, we Sang , we Cheered , we rapped and we went
Super-Crazy
" We don't need a Man"
while di needs a cute Man . Moronotic .

We did not sleep at all as we were so perfectly innovated.
dy-lisa and i made a fire which is not so the camp fire thingy.
maybe a 5 minutes fire . hhaha .

Sunrise. we were taking pictures
hungers attacked us .
and there was a Filipino couples joined us under the cottage.
they seemed friendly

Di and I went to search for Burger King
unfortunately. We ended up in 7 eleven

When we came back .
we saw a group of people and some
Sentosa's Pharamedics .
gathering around a guy who were lying down on a cemented floor.

i was so fricking terrified .
i can't imagined that if it happened to the one of us?

A guy who was in his thirties was drown in the sea .
Peace be with him"

he could be alive, if his own friends did CPR immediately
but their friends are disgusted to mouth to mouth him
they were still laughing and making fun of him . you know Matreps'
C'mon he was ur friend .
he could be saved and taking drugs with you guys now.

Anyways .
i was so fucking high and nearly drunk.
because my so-called a friend ask me to join them drinking.
they gave me almost 12 cups .
i drank Johnny Walker " black Label"
Gordon Gin and Jeam beam .
but i still control myself although im in the verge of vommiting
after that i soaked myself in the water
to freshe` up myself as
we will have our dinner in Lucky Plaza for
"Nasi Ayam Penyet"

The Night ended in lucky plaza.
i was so Exhausted .
When i reached home .
bath, online for a few mins and
KNock off.

Saturday, December 8, 2007,6:08 PM

im urs -

how have you been.
u promised to call me last nite but u did not!
i was expected ut call and expected you to be with me in zouk!
but it's okay. i am fine with it i gues u were really really busy with ur own errands.
im flattered a bit .
well im juz missing u.
im guing to sentosa. and i know you will be in zouk out rite.
u take care ouhk.
dun get into trouble or what.
well i am so sure u will be surrounded by those girls.
hahahahaha.
muacksssss

,5:31 PM

NOT zoo BUT ZOUK!

Tiredness , but i am cool`
yah it is 5.30pm and i jus woke up .
i wanted not to sleep coz my all time favourite movie
is showing in HBO which is the BODY GUARD (i miss it)

yah i overshot , coz i went to zouk last night .
it is my first time clubbing as a bryan ! =p
and the environment is so super diffrent .
i have to change everything how i used to be before in the club.
yah i did dance like a man . but My frend bow said
i danced like a super dooper MATREP
siak aje .
well i do think so as, there are two stupid minahs came to me
and danced with me. isn't it obvious?

HAHA.
bow and me had fun seh .
although net didnot entertained us that much.
me and bow still had the best time ever .
i cant't just imagined if LOVED. are with us.
i am so sure the we will be rawking the zouk .
like CHAOTIC WORLD!
haha. 2day i am going to sentosa i will be spending my nite over there
with the loved.
yah i know zouk out is tonite too !not interested.
how i wish that silosoo beach sinks. oops im so bad.

Bow and I were damn high last nite.
BOW i am really really sorrie if i am 26 minutes late .
We two ate in this PRATA shop.
we ordered 2 egg pratas and 2 cheese pratas
1 ice lemon tea and 1 iced milo
and it COST us $9.70
wdf? rite....its so farking expensive.
and that was the first prata shop that i knew "plain prata is FINISHED.
u guy get it?
hahahak busted siak .okay if u guys dun get it.
how could they sell egg pratas cheese pratas if plain pratas are not available?
heloo it's all made from plain pratas .u just have to add up ingredients!

at about 3+ in the dawn we went home.
i spend the nite at bow's place in telok blangah.
haha.
i told bow to wake me up at 6. so i can catch the 2nd bus.
he did wake me up at 6. but i said. give me more 30 mins.
6.35 he woke me up. i said 7 am please?
we did wake me up and i said 8 am please?
and he woke me up. he said i dun give a fark bryan go and sleep till u want!
hehehehehehehehehehe.
end up waking up at 10 am .
hahahaha

Friday, December 7, 2007,7:31 AM

,3:00 AM

- THE DAY AND NIGHT of 6/12/07` -

hmmm..
busy day today. i woke up at 12+ today in JOHN"s hommie.
with JOHNJOHN GF, DIDI, and JOHN"s cuzzins .

"The day of the interview"

i went back home as soon as i can can in order for me
to get change and prepare for the job interview.
i took the bus 985 and dropped near the hillgrove secondary school.
i tot i was gonna be late and i ran from the bustop to my block .
it was like almost 2.4 km . WOW. never done that for a long time lah deyy.
reached home quickly bath . and chit chat with my sis .

John and i met . we reached tiong bahru at around 2 pm
we took the bus 123 and dropped opposite side of the holiday inn hotel.
and we alighted at the wrong bustop that we supposed to stop .

WALAO eh . we searched for the place for like one hour .
for my goodness sake , we even went to the wrong hotel !
(COPTHORNE's KINGS HOTEL)(wow klass)
so the paiseh lehh.
we almost gave up and feel like heading town on the spot.
we did not give up bcoz it is like such a waste . spent one hour searching
for that stupid stupid place .
but before all that, we smoked and we did not give up .
we wanted to ask passer-by's but they all look so selengerr seh .

we crossed the road and we walk through the breezlings .
it was cold out there and we were so hungry !
we walked further down and then i myself saw the carpark
that leads to the hotel that we are supposed to go .
finally we went to the the human resource room .
filled-up form and waited for a few minutes and
not so long the human resource mngr . told us that she's gonna
call us for interview . well i was quite dissapointed though .

ATIKAH ` msgd JOHN and said that jangan alek dulu psl
die nye manager dah nak abes meeting . and she will try to talk to the mngr.

So, john and i waited at the main entrance of the hotel .
we sat at this cosy sofa . while waiting for atikah's call,
i fell asleep, and guess what .
i was snoring .
exhausted and having block nose.
well i guess i am having a flu.

hahahahaahha.
at last, atikah called and said that we may go up now and go for an interview.

we met GUNA, the mngr.
he criticized our day's attire. he said we shldnt dress up like a punkish looking
if we are going for an interview .ohh what da heLL?
well, my hair is TOTALLY NOT ACCEPTABLE. wdf ryte? thanks GUNA!
but, I TOLD HIM that
"it is possible for me to re-dye my hair into it's natural colour for my job"
(although it hurts)
OUR SHOES... hahahk

YAHOOOOOO!
he said everybody deserves a chance. and he gonna give us the opportunity
to work . GUNA give chances as he was given a chance by someone that
made him into a MANAGER.
HE said he gonna call us by MONDAY or TUESDAY
to inform our schedule .

-this is the hotel -
GRAND COPTHORNES' WATERFRONT HOTEL
CAFE BRIO'S

well that's the end .
we made our way to ORCHARD

- LOVED DAY OUT -

we wanted to que for free starbucks beverages.
unfortunately we did not as the que was so damn
long . damn it

bowie.di.dilisa.keka.jaggi.titty.aisyah.
john.azah.daya.iqin.naddy.naqiah.anna.
net.saf.wulan.last but not least is ME bryan hehehe

have fun luh. eat at long john.
go heeren luh . lepak at taka garden luhh.
went to lucky plaza maen arcade sehh..

very very tired . at last went home with nonet .
reached home but nobody is around . haizzz

well tym for me to say goodnite.

,2:32 AM

-picture of the day-

all i want for xmas is you . santa claus i want my presents

trip to london with bowiee

trip to india with bowiee

trip to tAka with loved.

-please do not copy-

Wednesday, December 5, 2007,10:28 AM

-lack of love -

December 5`

last nite, i couldn't give an answer .

u sitting there with your blank expression.

i told u once, i told u twice , u can see it in my eyes.

i'm all cried out with nothing to say .

you're everything i wanted to be ..

TODAY i finally made up my mind .

i am really really sorry . i can't just be with you .

please try to understand me .

it's a crucial decision and it gave total devastation .

it's tough alright .

i am tired listening to the sound of my tears.

please stop loving me , how you used to be.

i can't give you what you need.

i might be cruel . but this is me.

u accepted me, for what i am.

Tuesday, December 4, 2007,4:47 PM

LUST -

december 3 `

this is the story goes.

my residential phone rung. he called .

i was thinking all day long about him and viewing his profile .

i did not really expect that he's gonna call .

coz i knew he's kinda busy with his own errands.

gosh, i miss him to theee core! .

well. there's nothing between me and him .

i dun have an interest, to be his . maybe stay freinds .

a close one?

well if u're reading this, u won't be surprise

coz' you already know it.

and i know it won't drive you mad coz u promised me

remember?

u know, i am so glad that i knew and met u

it's actually an opportunity .

u're a nice guy . but i can't be with you .

there are a lot of reasons why !

u should know it .

there's a lot of people out there who are better thn me

i am not high up to ur level .

in fact i am nothing to you.

it's like u'r the Prince and i am the slave .

we are not in a fairytale world.

C'mon face the reality !

Still waiting for your call .